28 March 2012

Strengthening Ourselves



We all have our own weaknesses and limitations. That reality is a part of us being humans, because we are built imperfect. Along with these weaknesses come our own strengths and abilities. To maintain a balance between these two aspects require intelligence and an ability to reconcile the weaknesses with the strengths. There are as well other mediating aspects between weaknesses and strengths, such as perception (the way we see the world around us), attitude, personality, and how we adapt to changes and other factors that have an impact on our daily lives.

As we go on living our lives, we encounter a lot of things, people, and situations that may demand us to use all the aspects that were previously mentioned. There might be a situation wherein we have to think and decide how to respond to it. Our strengths, our weaknesses, our attitude and personality, as well as level of intelligence will all contribute to how we are going to respond to it. Most of the time, we are also influenced by our reasoning, emotions, biases, and motivations on making a decision. It might appear that dealing with all these daily decision-making can produce a certain amount of confusion to a person, but at the end of every choice, a person becomes more and more proficient in striking a balance within all the factors and aspects of his own self.

These processes happen to us everyday. There are some of us who easily adapt and respond to these tasks and make wise choices. They know how to balance the various aspects that affect the way they make their decisions and effectively do all of their activities. They are able to balance objective reason with proper emotions, and at the same time, they also succeed in overcoming their difficulties. They know how to compensate their weaknesses and limitations, and they also know how to adapt themselves to everyday situations. They are smart enough to identify the different personalities that they interact with everyday, and deal with them in harmonious ways thus maintaining positive relationships and proper communication.

But not all people are gifted with such abilities. Some are having difficulties in balancing the many processes that interact within their own selves, thus making decisions that they later regret. Some are unaware of their own needs and fail to recognize and respond to the demands of their everyday lives. They would often focus on seeing their own weaknesses and may not identify their own gifts and abilities. Some would succumb to despair and depression because they are unable to maintain a proper balance of the various aspects of their lives.

Such is human nature, full of complicated and intertwining aspects that need balance. As long as life goes on, there will always be demands and responsibilities which need to be responded to and accomplished. But we are not left unarmed to face these realities of life. As mentioned earlier, are all built with our own strengths and weaknesses. We are all endowed with intelligence, and gifted with many skills which we can use to make proper decisions and make accomplishments. We might be excellent with a certain field but weak on a certain task. The challenge lies on how we objectively reason and respond to these issues that affect us. Are we just going to accept the fact that we are weak on this or that task? Are we going to rest our laurels knowing that we are good at the field we specialized in? Are we going to stay on bed and sleep all day comfortably, or are we going to wake up and face the real world with all its challenges? Are we going to stay on our comfort zone or are we going to take risks of pursuing new heights which we have never yet reached?

We as humans must constantly challenge ourselves with these questions. And we must remember that if we are weak, we are at the same time, strong. What matters is how we transform the idea of ‘being weak’ (or weakness in another word), into a real and concrete form of ‘being strong’ (or strength in another word). It lies on how we redirect our mind and will-power so that we overcome these challenges and succeed in making a difference to our own selves.

21 March 2012

Bougainvilleas

It was December last year when I was assigned to work at the library, and since then, every morning and afternoon, I look forward to having my daily walk and simply observe the beauty of the surrounding streets. Our place is not a particularly urban jungle with many buildings and high-class establishments, but it's rather simple: surrounded with shops, apartments, home subdivisions, and vacant lots. And beside the busy roads and highways, there are many trees which look like wide, and verdant canopies which envelope the concrete roads. These trees also have their own fall and springs seasons: there are specific months of the year when they would shed their leaves and replace them with young, new leaves; and some would bloom with many tiny yellow blossoms which would also fall to the ground while filling the air with an elegant fragrance.



Aside from these trees, I also like to look at the bougainvillea blossoms which are being used as hedges of a house nearby the library building. Colorful flowers are especially a rarity on street establishments. So having the privilege of seeing bloomfuls of magenta and purple while on my way to work and before I go home brings inspiration to may daily activities. It really brings joy to my eyes and my heart. Such a wonderful day! :)

20 March 2012

Pretty in Pink



Last month, I bought my first digital camera, the Canon A1200, and since then, I had been truly enjoying using it. It was a very worthwhile addition to my everyday must-haves and though it was not truly that expensive, it certainly was much more than how it costs, and I'm glad to bring it with me especially when we travel and I need to capture the ordinary things, people and beautiful places we visit. Hopefully in the coming future, I can have my much awaited DSLR, but not in the meantime, that can wait.

For this month, there's a new addition to the family, and it's a pink hello-kitty keyboard. I know it looks very girly, with all the pink keys and white casing, which probably not coincides with the plain color motif of my room. But because I am beginning to like making changes lately, I chose to have it. My sister-in-law invited me to visit the little shop located on her hometown, so I agreed, and then, she suggested the pink keyboard for me. At first, I sort of hesitated. When I realized that since I'm using my keyboard everyday, why not have a change of look? So there, I got it, and now it sits quietly in front of my PC together with the hello-kitty alarm clock my sister-in-law gave me as a present a few months ago. I never expected to have such an understanding and helpful sister, because I'm so used to being the only girl in our house. Now I have sister. :)

17 March 2012

Nature Stroll after the Friday Prayer (Floridablanca, Pampanga)




Living in the city, with all its latest developments and technology, including interacting with many kinds of people everyday, accompanied by constant noise and pollution can be very tiring, interspersed with all kinds of complications, stress, and emotional baggage.



So I always long for the quiet and peaceful life of being with nature. As much as possible, I retreat to always being alone and simply marvel with the beauty of nature God created. I'd prefer silence and solitude and look at the soil with a little flower growing on it.

14 March 2012

Me, Lately

For the past few days, I had been feeling quite unwell. I accidentally bit my tongue, and I didn't realized it until I felt that my tongue had been aching and bleeding for days because of a wound. It's taking quite longer for it to heal and somehow, I'm not really used to having a wound like this, it's very uncomfortable. On another note, lately, my appetite had been good so far and Alhamdulillah, I am gaining my normal weight. Also, I love to savor the taste of yummy recipes at home. I frequently make an iced drink refreshment every dinner with a secret ingredient (it starts with a letter g and ends with letter e).

I'd like to share to others my cheeriness, especially to my younger siblings. Laughing over hearty jokes when we go home makes a very light atmosphere for everyone. It's really an effort most of the time, and I'm doing it constantly to reinforce the habit of positivity. A lot of my time had been taken away and wasted over very annoying and nonsense trifles, worries, and unrealistic pessimism, which lately, I realized are of no benefit for me to become a better person.

I'm being particularly a bit laid back and like dressing up. My style reflects a lot more of cozy comfort and somewhat those of little girls, with flowers, and pink, and white, every now and then. I also like to wear high heels with stilettos, and am looking forward to buy high-cut boots. I have boots at home, but I dislike the loud clinking sounds that they make while I walk, especially over smooth floors. So for that matter, I'll be looking for noiseless, high-heeled boots.

Book-wise, I've been losing interest over reading fiction. I am much more into reading Islamic books which deal with practical reality, inspire me, strengthen my faith and bring me peace of mind. Among my reading list which I particularly like are: Don't Be Sad by Dr. Aidh Al Qarni, and The Noble Qur'an. My goal is to be a more peaceful, and God-fearing person, and I'd like to develop a stronger sense of discretion and conviction in choosing what is good and avoiding what is evil. Knowing oneself and ones purpose in life (to worship our Creator), is what truly brings my mind and heart to rest. It is what truly makes me happy. :-)

10 March 2012

09 March 2012

Unnoticed Beauty


08 March 2012

Wednesday Afternoon

Today, I dropped the third and second lessons via mail and also checked the mailbox at the post office. The afternoon was particularly hot, the roads were filled with smoke coming from the cars and occasional dust from the sidewalks spread on the air. Except for the flower-stands, trees, plants, and blue sky, nothing was particularly pretty as I observed, sitting with the side-open windows on the public jeep. The buildings are dilapidated, the store fronts are untidy, the streets are filled with trash, I couldn't see any place which is simple, clean, cozy, and pretty. It's all dusty, noisy, and bustling. The ruggedness leaves me a bit disappointed. The downtown market was busy with people, some students have just finished their classes and were on their way home. The faces of people were steady-set, most of them might have been tired throughout the day. The hot weather must have some effect on people's moods and I think it adds to additional stress on everyday activities.

On the other hand, I enjoy riding the jeep. I find it sort of adventuresome to see en plein aire outside sights and places. There's some order and beauty amid of it all, and I hope to see this town transform into a much better and improved place. I look forward to that. :)

01 March 2012

Perspective Changing



Memories.  Looking back at them, nostalgia brings a feeling fondness and warmth. Memories teach me a lot of lessons about life, to chart my own progress, and to find solutions to some present things that I have to solve. Mistakes in the past and how I corrected them so that I won't make them again today makes me look back at the past so that I'm prepared as to what I'm going to anticipate. I also see the past as not entirely separated from the present, that there's a pattern of continuity to both, and even to the future. That was how I used to think. As the years went by, growing up, my mode of viewing events and memories was as constant as how I could remember. How I perceived events, things, people, were like a one-track way of seeing, though as I go along the way of discoveries, adventures, reading, writing, making art, interacting with people, strengthening my faith and reflecting about life, the more I realize that I cannot entirely forget memories and discard them - they still have an effect with how my life is in  the present. Within my own silent world devoid of things and people artificial, I am constantly learning more and more of seeing through a clearer lens which may seem vague to others who don't understand. There are many events which happen that I don't understand - and it takes time, a long time before I truly comprehend. My understanding is very limited, and when it is fully formed, it grows firmly rooted in my mind.

Rewinding events until I arrive to the present, I realize that I'm getting older. Not 'older' in the sense of aging, but 'older' in the sense of having to mature, of having to change my perspectives. I realized that over-thinking about the past is only a facade. The real reason behind which is my ideal of resistance to change - of being constant. The past, the present, the future - TIME - they are connected, but I have to accept that they are not the same. Time changes, and everything changes. Even my perception is getting more and more vague because I am making a huge effort of seeing the events in my life as 'constant'. I resist change, and I have to know why. Maybe I need to make a complete closure before letting memories go, that I don't want to take risks, that I fear that I might not be able to adapt to change. But here I am, sometimes, it's like I am looking at life with a pair of tunnel-vision glasses. The truth will tell me that what I'm seeing is actually a 'distorted image'. It may take some time, but now that I am in this stage of my life, that I have to adapt and accept change.

Memories. I might put them neatly in the past - to look back at them occasionally - but I have to check if they prevent me from becoming what I truly should become. There are things that remain constant, there are events quite difficult to understand, there are questions which are not answered. To learn to trust and have more faith as to where God will lead me in life brings me peace of mind. And if I cannot understand, I will surrender it to Him alone. In due time, inshaAllah, He will make me understand. I've seen it and felt it  before: that letting go of old thinking is like making a brand new start. It's very refreshing of being stripped away of old, old constricted thinking, it's like being freed of a heavy burden weighing on my shoulders. Old thinking is becoming obsolete and not suited to the present. It is good to consider change -  a better change and a clearer perspective.

Sandy Trail

Everyday, I go to walk to the library on a sandy trail sidewalk; cars, jeeps, and motors rushing on the road beside me. Dead leaves and occasional trash are scattered all over, and my wedge-shaped sandals are getting a bit deformed - since I also have to walk through some rocks and pebbles. 

I like gazing at the trees and skies sometimes as I go back to our shop when I close the library. The trees and skies add to the natural beauty of the place against the backdrop of noisy autos rushing on the road, and busy people walking to and fro.

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